In exactly one week, I will be with my best friend and boyfriend- who is one and the same- enjoying the warmth and relaxation that Ocho Rios, Jamaica has to offer.
We are planning on spending a week in Jamaica at an all inclusive resort to, basically, get away. We are going to swim with dolphins, go horseback riding and let professionals pamper and spoil us to our hearts content.
We both recently graduated in May and have been working extremely hard trying to save money and figure out where we want to go and what we want to do when we get there. And we both recently rationalized that because we can't seem to quite figure it out here, what better place to figure out our next move than in Jamaica?
I wrote a blog a couple months ago about trying to figure out what's next and unfortunatley I don't have any new updates. I'm still Stuck.
I recently moved out of my apartment and after six years of living on my own, moved back into my mom's house in Topeka. It was kind of a devastating move because I had to seperate myself from my dog and cat who are currently residing at my dad's.
The idea was to move back to Topeka, save money and pay off debts while applying for big-girl jobs. The reality of the situation is that I've saved up enough money for a vacation and realized I want a big-girl job and my own place again now more than ever.
Prior to the move I actually convinced myself it would be empowering and inspiring saving money and applying for jobs. A little more than a month in and I feel more stalled than ever, almost as if I'm going backwards.
I know exactly what I want to do.
I know I want to write, I hate not consistently writing now, but yet I don't apply for jobs or do anything to help myself.
My grandma always said, "God helps them who help themselves." So why aren't I helping myself?
I'm hoping that this trip ignites some inner spark and serves as the inspiration I need to set the rest of my future in motion.
But like Bob Marley said, "Don't worry about a thing because every little thing gonna be alright."
I hope so Mr. Marley.
